time ticks by...

07 is coming to an end!! ahh... cant believe this hectic year is over. or rather this 2 long years. so many things happened and so many things are yet to happen haha. and guess wad?? i found a job. wonderful man. cant explain my anxiety and nervousness...

i'm going to be a relief teacher. omg.

ok altho one gd point is you work at earthly hours and the school is jus like erm, 2 min walk from my hse. haha. ok that was 2 gd points. anyways there's so many terrible scary points.

1. i only have jeans to wear, which is not allowed.
2. i've to face a super big grp of people
3. i've to mark scripts.
4. i've to teach things i've never touched for like. decades.
5. i've zero experience.
6. i don want to talk to so many ppl!!
7. the class so big!!!
8. wad if i stone??

oh great. this is really scary. hais. why did i even take it up, you'll ask. and den i'll answer. i duno i always believed one thing and you told me i was wrong. but now you are the one proving me how right i was.

i said i've laid it down. den why do i fell this way. i cant explain to anyone. including myself. and seeing you, you, you everyone! why. wad do i mean to you? i don get it. is it true. and you. wad do you want from me? i dont know wad you want. and i'm tired. i jus don believe in it anymore. i feel like jus telling you that. i duno.

到头来，还是一个人
if you think i'm fine,
you're wrong.